Looking up

I'm feeling so much better about things than I have in such a long time.  I feel more organized.  Maybe only a little more, but I'll take it.  I feel closer to my family and like we're all in good places in our relationships.  I feel like I have plans and like I'm making progress on those plans.  I feel like I've been sad and mourning the loss of certain friendships for way too long.  I think I've finally accepted the loss and accepted the fact that I will never really know the reason for it.  I'm way more optimistic about getting myself in more of healthy state of being.  I'm making small changes at a time, but they are real, impacting changes.  I have more energy than I've had in a long time and I'm putting it to good use.  I've let go of some of the stress and hoping to let go of some more of it; it's OK if I'm not always in control...  Life's too short - why should I agonize over every little detail?  I'm just not willing to do it anymore.  I'm ready to enjoy life  - even when it's messy and not going according to plan.  Oh... and I choose to let go of the bitterness and to embrace my faith.  I refuse to be the ugly person.  I will continue to talk to God and really listen for his responses and teach my boys to do the same. I know it's only going to continue to get better.

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FS Gypsy said…
I am glad to hear that you are happier and in a better place. You Mami and Daddy always loves you and wish we were closer to be more involved in your life! Big hugs!!!
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