My Chaos -

On Friday the boys and I decided to pack a picnic lunch and walk to the park.  I'm so glad we did.  I normally would not have wanted to walk, even though it is not that far.  I am trying to be more active than I usually am this year.  It's so funny, I always make excuses like what if I can make it or what if we get there and I'm too tired to walk back.  Come on - it isn't that far.  Even now, I am thinking, how is the heat going to affect my outdoor walks?  It's starting to get warmer here.  Really though, not only was I completely fine walking there, but on the way back, we walked over a block before heading back to the house.   Oh and the boys and I also walked a couple of blocks outside every day last week on top of the walk I did inside on the treadmill.  Yay for movement! I did take my camera with me and I'm so glad I did.  I really enjoyed playing with my camera for the first time in a few months. Bry...

I got to take photos of my grandmother-in-law and her sister a couple of weeks ago.  It was a lot of fun and a first for me.  I usually take pics of my boys or other kids.  It was also really the first time playing with my camera really since the Costa Rica trip.  I wasn't my steadiest, but I like the shots I got.

This year has been a little odd so far.  A little distressing.  A little confusing.  A little sickly.  And a little selfish.  On the surface it started on our trip to Costa Rica when I started feeling sick, had some altitude sickness and had my first ever panic attack (but I think it really started on our trip to Colorado and the fear of what high altitudes do to me).  And I didn't get any medical attention for 4 days afterwards.  I spent 4 hours on an airplane scared of the possibility of a blood clot; scared that something awful would happen while on the plane and my kids would be alone.  It was the longest flight of my life.  I went to the ER the day after I got home.  We did blood work, an EKG and a CT scan.  Check, check, check.  Nothing wrong other than a bacterial infection that I got while in Costa Rica.  We didn't address the panic attack since I figured it was over and I had the answers to my physical well being....